where is fancy bread...in the heart or in the head...

how do you do "everything" unto the lord
work...play...music...movies
obviously the bible forgot to take into account a future that is an american capitalistic society...what is ministry....what about working in an environment isolated from human contact....do i waste valuable time...sitting here watching a basketball game....checking my email...i see why people go crazy....i understand why we have nervous breakdowns....we think we have control over our mind...we think we are indestructible...we think we are untouchable...till something fails...something breaks down....and we find ourselves helpless...hurting...in need...we try to apply the years and years of advice we have given others...to ourselves...but we draw a blank....finding comfort in nothing....maybe the fact that there is something out there greater than us....in control....and that maybe...just maybe he hasn't abandoned us for not doing his work...for not living out the kingdom...i could never believe in a god like that...and yet i still find my mind wondering....i can only hope...that having nothing to offer is enough....that pleading with god to use me....will spawn an answer...something audible maybe...cause i hate laying out fleeces...but what can you do when you are a sinner....filled with doubt...

seriously...can we choose the wrong path...what the hell is the wrong path....what the hell is the right path...choices can be right and wrong...can paths??? i get it...we do thing out of selfish motives...we want what we want...but if we are seeking god on something...can we make a wrong decision...won't god always be with us...doesn't god use even the wrong choices for his glory....so why all the sweating...pulse pounding...let's go and do it...let's not sit around and waste anymore time...let's throw caution to the wind...get up and actually do what we've been flapping our gums about for the last five years....

of course...right after this game