2 hard things...

2 of the hardest things
to find in life are as follows:
a job that you love
a person that you want to marry
and as i sit at the inlet
watching the ocean waves
deteriorate barnacle encrusted rocks
that which i am jealous of
i have never longed for both more
cause when she sits by my side
and i stare into her deep blue eyes
i see forever
never ending
she begs me in with her
and i oblige
why wouldn't i
its only all i've ever wanted
to be daring
to be bold
and she draws it out from me
so i take off my shoes and socks
and i plunge my feet into the softness of sand
waves crash against me
swirling around my legs
i am a rock
as she wears me down

scent...

"you smell good"
or so she said
making me feel alive
with 3 meaningless words
but words none the less
and it may seem simple
but i'll take it
because life is full
of rigid standards
set by me
a heartache
i wish could break
saying only "its her smell"
and being satisfied in such a fragrance
floating still
never dull
never boring
never able
to be replaced

i'm an old man...

such silly little games we play
back and forth we tickle and giggle
but what is it all about
what is it all for
are we growing together
will we be here forever
just get to the point
i'm an old man
i live an old man's life
taking care of older men
forgetting what its like to be naive
my bones get soar when i do too much
my stomach hurts when i don't do enough
i finally found mortality
and it frightens me
to the point where freedom is lost
trying to protect myself from the outside world
afraid of disease
afraid to be exposed
desperately wanting to open up
for someone to listen
to breathe in deep my breath
and be ok with its stench
i've gotta stop all of this