i will not let this bitter root grow in you...

you feel the need to stay stuck
that you are only a product of what has come before you
WHY??!!
why so complacent
why so reluctant
why is it so easy for you to be a door mat
why are you ok with this
no my friend
NO!!
this isn't what god has for you
this isn't his plan
i know the past is ugly
i know its easier to accept this destiny
but i will not accept it for you
i will not let you think its ok

and i know its a long way down
but its time to make a change
look at the tree you have been rooted from
ponder its rotting bark
understand its bitter roots
and find yourself malcontent
with it infecting your foliage
cut swiftly my friend
saw with vigor
the fall will hurt
but you will heal
and life won't feel the same anymore
find fresh black soil
and plunge deep your broken members
let the old wither away
let change spring forth

what i'm learning...

when i feel the need to be in control of decisions...i start freaking out
when i give the burden of control over to god...the pressure is relieved
i have a lot of expectations and ideas i have created...and they're hard to shake
i want to try because its hard...because i've never done it
the caress of human flesh will never satisfy my hunger
i am afraid to make mistakes