they do it because they were born to do it...

you don't understand
its always been about me
and sometimes i feel
it will never be anything but
i want my dreams to become realities
but only at the price i'm willing to pay
i don't remember that you have needs
i can't feel them deep within
because i only worry about myself

its hard to do the things you were "born to do"
because you end up doing them over and over
and over and over again
til you begin to hate what you are so gifted at
you lose perspective
you want something new...something fresh
and its not that you don't love the accolades
its that its loses it challenge
or its that people now have this great expectation of you
and you are afraid that you will "lose a step"
or do something lame
and for certain you will find someone better than you
and then you will question your gifting all together

its a pride feeder to hear someone proclaim
"you are the best"
and you soak it up
even though you know its untrue
because you've seen someone better
and so has that person
and the next and the next

will i always be on the edge of something great
will i always learn my lesson after the damage is done
"how come i fall in love with every girl who shows me the slightest bit of attention"
do i even know what it means to fall in love
is there such a thing
is there such a girl
is there such a gift or job to be satisfied in
where you wake up everyday so thankful you are in it
even after years and years and years and years
is there anything new under the sun

these are the things that humans have always pondered
and will continue to ponder til the end of this earth
how is my questioning any different